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Read if you feel there is no one to take care of you.
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June 8, 2013
1:35 pm
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Hi folks,

I am a very simple person just 23 years old! I had a lots of money problem at my home, since my child hood! Its all okay if you sacrifice your wishes when you don’t have money. But its very hard it see if someone is sacrificing their wishes to fulfill your wishes. That all use to happen with me. I was just a kid! under qualified unskilled kind of useless to get money at home. I used to try lots of things to make some money for my family but all it ended up with costing me a lot and not getting anything.

My life was going through this sort of crises. In between I hold the hand of meditation I discovered myself. I enjoyed myself, I Learned about the beauty :) I screamed around me all the time. I explored the fantasy. I in fact took the tour of Heaven being on this planet. But good things don’t last in my life for long. As I completed my graduation in 2011 I was kind of dumped out of the college and the course I did, had no value in the software companies, after 3 years of back breaking efforts, under money pressure some how I had finish my graduation.

I was caught up even in a bigger problem! I was an graduate and no company gave me job coz the course I did was not adequate. i did not had much to ask to my parents who already sacrificed a lot for me and I had no one else to ask anything for. I was helpless and more useless. But some power inside me was guiding me into my decisions and into my efforts to reach up to my goals. I WAS WITH ME. When i was alone. I decided to ask my family for the last time to do a higher degree for six moths. approx 1.5 lakhs it had to cost.

I did the higher degree. and finally experimented and established with all the practical knowledge i needed for the profession i wanted to be in the industry. But Again the bad things continued. Due to My course while my degree I again rejected by companies and all those who had BE and MCA were getting chance for facing the interviews. Even if i had lots of pracitcal knowledge i was not getting the chance. I was again into trouble. My life was completely going down. This was called as problems attracts problems. more problems attracts more problems. i was kind of tiny atom surrounded with the problems of miles of diameter. I was loosing my mind. what hold me i don’t know.

In between i was having crush with a girl. i enjoyed here. felt some relax with here even after so much problems around. But she left me in only 1 month coz of i was not having job and all the stuff and she was right why would she be with someone who cant give here luxury sitting at home. i even more submerged into the dump of problems. now problems was not only affecting me physically but also mentally and through mind. Problems never used to trouble my mind coz i had controlled it through meditation. But now my mind was also dragged into it. It was all of me sink into the circle of problems. I was so into deep that i was invisible to the happiness. Was mentally ill. creating trouble for others. damaged from all the four sides.

I was wondering after all these incidence that a boy always use to be in fantasy was very serious. :( i was not that kind before. but i had to do something to get out of all this thing. I finally got job i was tremendously happy. i thought now something can be changed. But i found the man the owner of that org. was fake and don’t use to give money . he told me to give money after 3 months. I worked hard and made lots of products of his company. But after 3 months he gave me 1/2 of what he promised. I have to leave that company . and problems was again added over my already tones of problems. living was looking a trouble for me. even after doing so much i was just getting nothing and over it was taking my lots of things.

I lost my hope and surrendered my self to the flow. I lost my friends. did not had money. lost family faith. Lost society respect. i had nothing to loose more what was i was added with was body Weight. Only i was eating and lying. all the things were so UN-managed, that i was missing to find myself. as i was missing how could i drag myself out of that circle of sorrow? I waited 4 months. and just doing nothing. as like the Lion is in the cage. he is help less. I was also like the same Problem made a strong cage for me.

It is said That good days comes and you don’t know when it changes your life. :) finally 4 months later i was interviewed into a MNC company who selected me at the basic package. i accepted and started working. On the day of my first salary, in my bank account there were 3 times money then what i was promised by my previous employer. i was at cloud9 now i can get anything for me and for my family. slowly slowly days really changed and now money problem is overridden. I am facing problem is just my nature has got changed. I am totally UN-managed. Takes lots of time to do it. i am facing conversation problem. i am unable to know others emotions and feelings. I am unable to communicate about me and could not reply to them properly. NEED TO RECONSTRUCT MY MIND what is been damaged by the flood of problems i had faced in the past. I only expect that same time continues for at least something more and i will recover even by my left problem.

In between i tried meditations lots of time but i was unable to discover that beauty. the things was blur. and i hope the energy circles were unbalanced by this flood of problems. I want to rediscover my self and come out from all of this. Want to Roar like a king of the Jungle where I could maintain peace into me and around me.

Summary. There is always someone who looks after you. There is always someone appointed to take care of you. God never leaves you alone. Even if i was unable to survive under huge problems i was having control on my mind. that kept me motivated. In between i got a girlfriend which mad me halt at a under a shadow and take some rest in my journey. i relaxed and unfortunately it took my mind control. but never He leaves you like this. he gave me a job to re gain that control but again i was crashed. and with a break i am now placed at a good place and by the grace of god i am doing work what i used to do always . i am in a profession what i wanted to be in. I am right from the beginning under his control and recovered every time when i crashed. I am so happy and self dependent know that i dont want any one to sacrifice anything for me to get something. I am finding my self of getting established and normalize my foundation of good life. i am just 23 now. and have 1 1/2 years of software developer experience. got a good job. Even my family has stabilized now and have good virtue. as the things really working well now i can look forward to have mind control again. MEDITATION IS ONLY THE WAY TO MAKE ME FIND IT AGAIN. I am desperately waiting to see my beauty again. :) Its all about at which side of the desk you stand, on the ‘true’ side or on the ‘false’ side.

June 12, 2013
10:32 am
Sarah G
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Hello Sohil

Thanks for sharing – I am glad to hear things have worked out well for you.

I hope you enjoy the meditation course!

All the best,
Sarah

June 13, 2013
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thank you

June 16, 2013
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Hi Sohil,

I am glad a newbie, I used to practice regular meditation earlier. In course of time, I couldn’t find the same energy/peace, due to lack of proper shadana. Now I started the course of “Sahaja Yoga Online Meditation” Hope you have done this. I going through the guided meditation classes and practicing the meditative videos and the articles. I want to have the same peace & tranquility till the end of the day, which I find after the meditation. I need to balance my chakras, find a calm breath. I am glad you find good balance and the grace in your life. Please lets be interactive. Hope we can help in mutual growth and contribution.

Thank you,
Krishna.

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