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April 4, 2013
11:20 am
Anders
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Hey im a 25 year old guy that got into spirituality about a year ago.

It all started when I saw this short youtube video with a guru that talked about fear for just about 2 minutes. It grabbed me how true and genuine his words sounded. I got hocked, and started watching more and more videos on various topics. Everything sounded so logical, even the stuff that I would have shaken my head in disbelief years earlier. It felt like I already knew all that was said but had just forgotten about it, and I was laughing at myself while watching some of the videos because of the way he pointed out my “bad habits”. I have since then read a couple of books and from time to time watched more videos on youtube.

A week or so after I got into all this, I attempted my first guided meditation with said guru. It was very hard at first since I have a very busy mind. Im kind of a introvert person so I have always been in “my own (busy) world”. After about two weeks doing this meditation it started to feel like my mind got a bit more quite and I could focus better. In the meditation I had learned I was told to hold a focus between my eyes.
As the mind got more quite I noticed this pressure that started on the sides of my head and sometimes moved to my forehead and at one time to the backside of the head. But mostly it was on the sides. It felt like a headache but without the pain.

I got a bit scared so I googled it. Different sites said different things but I read somewhere that as long as I dont rush things it should be fine. So I keept doing it, because even tho it scared me a little I was more curious and excited about this new sensation.

After some time the pressure became more common on the forehead and stopped showing up other places of the head. It also became smaller and started to focus in on the spot i was focusing on. About this time the pressure started appearing when I didnt meditate also. Mostly right after I had meditated or when I was reading about spirituality. Some times it could come up if I was working during the day also.

This went on for some time but my interest in this new thing started to fade after my vacation last summer when I “didnt have time” to meditate. So around late September I stopped meditating completely. As the meditation stopped so did the pressure. I still thought about starting again sometimes but I just didn’t have the energy.

Around X-mas I quit my job to take some time to apply to different schools. After some time off traveling to visit friends I got back home, and that was when I felt an urge to meditate again. I have now meditated most of the days for about one and a half mouth. I got the pressure back, but only when I meditate (half true, it kinda tingles my forehead when Im writing this . But for most of the time its just when Im meditating).

I quickly started to feel how my hands started to get warmer. I didn’t think much about it since my hands got kind of warm during the last period of meditation. After one meditation session I decided to put hands close to each other to see if the warmth would get warmer or something. It didnt but I instead noticed a pressure between them. Like and small magnetic force. I played around with this feeling for awhile and for the second time I googled one of my experiences. I found out all people could do this if they just focused sometime. I tried to do it again but found out it almost only worked right after a meditation session. I have done this after every session and for about a week and about two times this pulsing heat have appeared. The magnetic force kind of disappears and and this sensation that someones is breathing out warm air is taking place between the hands.

This brings us to a couple of days ago and why im here. During one meditation session I notice how my palms was not warm like they used to. Instead my whole left hand was warm and my whole right hand was cold. Usually the middle of my palm will be warm but my fingers can still be kind of cold. Sometimes they can also be all warm but mostly kind of warm in the middle of the palm and the rest of the hand is natural body warm. I hope you understand what im trying to say. Anyway, since it was a new sensation that had never happened before, was so distinct and since I couldnt come up with logical reason why there where such a different between the hands I used google again.

I found two threads on this forum about this phenomenon and I found it so interesting i decided to try out the classes. Today I got to class 2, so I did the guided meditation this morning and also about two hours ago. And noticed something that I have not been able to find talked about on here so Im gonna try explaining it to see if anyone could help me understand the sensation that im feeling.

When im having the left hand on my knee and i put my right hand on the ground I dont feel the breeze in the left hand that is talked about in the guided meditation. Instead there is a strong feeling/pain in the middle of my right hand that I have put on the ground. Almost like someone have shoved up a nail in the middle of the palm. The “pain” sensation is kind of strong but I can still have hand on the ground the whole time without having to pull it away (even tho I though about it when I started feeling it). There is also some tingling in the arm. Like some nerves in the upper arm are pinched. I tried putting my hand down when im just sitting on the floor when Im not meditating and the feeling is not there at all. Which makes me believe that it have to do with the meditation.
(For the record when im doing the other hand (lifting the left hand up towards the sky) im not feeling anything special.)

Hopefully you can put some light on why this is and maybe reflect on the other experiences I had during my short meditation journey.

(English is not my first language so I hope the long text isnt to painful to read wink)

Thank you.

April 4, 2013
1:28 pm
Mar'yana
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Dear Anders,

What you are feeling makes sense based on that previous guru and meditation you were doing – in Sahaja yoga meditation we do not suggest focusing attention on the forehead, because that usually creates extra pressure in the 6th energy centre and tightens it, instead of letting in relax and letting your energy pass through it and emerge through the top of your head. I don’t know whether you have already felt the difference between the meditation technique we are doing in this course and the technique you have used before, it is possible, that you are still trying to meditate “the old way” and not really getting to the thoughtless awareness state with attention above the head – I don’t know, are you? If you would like to give a good chance to this technique and to see whether you like it enough to use it for a while, we would suggest to not mix it with other techniques, so that you can have a clear experience and decide whether this is something that is working for you, or not.

Now, about left and right hands – both things you are describing (extra heat in the left hand, and the pain in the right hand while doing the balancing for the left channel, when the right hand in on the ground) suggest that there is an imbalance or blockage in your left energy channel. It might be coming from that other meditation technique, or from somewhere else, though it’s not that important for now to know where it is coming from. It might also manifest as you being more emotional and touchy, or having lot’s of thoughts or memories from the past interfering with your meditation. As you are continuing with this course, this imbalance should gradually clear out (we also have additional balancing techniques for the left channel, but I would not suggest doing them before you get to class 4 or 5, and by that time you might not even need them any more).

So I would suggest to continue with this course, not mix with other techniques, and see how things develop, whether your sensations change, and whether your meditation (thoughtless) state improves. If nothing changes much by the time you get to class 4-5, let us know, we can point you to some extra things. In the meantime, just enjoy the meditation, and see how it feels. Of course, if you have other questions, feel free to ask any time – you don’t have to wait till reaching the middle of the course for that :).

Looking forward to hearing from you again!

All the best,
Mar’yana

P.S. English in not my first language either, and yours sounds perfect to me :).

April 4, 2013
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Thank you for the quick response. Yes, its hard not to focus on the forehead when thats the way Im used to meditate. Im kind of focusing on the breathing and on the forehead at the same time. So now that Im supposed to be thoughtless i still kinda focus on the breathing and since its “natural” for me to do both i automatically also shift my focus to the forehead. When Im listening to the guided meditation my focus stop for awhile so hopefully i will just unlearn this habbit smile

When you say attention above my head, is there a certain spot I should focus on or should I just kind of be thoughtless with a “attention upwards” if you know what im mean?

PS. I do recognize myself in the left side description from what i have read in the first two classes.

“self-discipline becomes difficult and bad habits hard to correct. In the worst case, we become lethargic..” Is words thats fit my situation right now confused Have had months to finish my applications to schools by now and now its just a week left. Here I am having my full focus on meditation embarassed But still happy im doing this.

April 4, 2013
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Well, you could say it’s about keeping attention on the top of the head or a bit above (5-15cm above) the head without actually forcefully focusing it – that’s the best description I could come up with :).

You can try this thing – whenever you catch yourself focusing on the forehead, or putting too much attention on your breathing, put your right hand on the top of your hear and press it a little – that should bring your attention to the right spot immediately. So then try to keep your attention there (without forcing it though :) ), and slowly put your hand bak on your lap. Repeat whenever you realize your attention is elsewhere. With time you can also raise your hand above the head, and keep your attention there, but it might be too difficult to do that right away. Once you start feeling the breeze above your head it will become much easier, because then you can just keep your attention on that breeze. But for now the hand trick should help. :)

Even when you are not sitting down for meditation, you can practice this simple attention exercise – ask yourself: “Where is my attention?” notice that, and then just touch the top of your head (right in the middle – the fontanelle bone) with a finger or two, even just lightly, or just scratch with a finger as you would scratch your head (so that you don’t look weird if you do that in public :) ), and see how long your attention will stay there once you have stopped touching it.

All the best! :)

Mar’yana

April 4, 2013
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Thank you again!

One last question. I have read articles about that awakening kundalini sometimes could be dangerous and some of the symptoms could be permanent. Is there something I should avoid or something I should be careful about when doing these meditations?

April 4, 2013
3:47 pm
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Well, there used to be wrong techniques in the past, that were trying to “awaken” Kundalini through tantric sexual practices. That is dangerous, because it offends the purity of the motherly quality of the Kundalini energy.
Our technique, as far as I can tell, is safe – I know hundreds of people who have been had their Kundalini awakened by this technique years ago, and most of them are healthy and happy people. I have also seen many more go through the exercise for the first time in my presence, and most of them felt great, while none of them felt the scary symptoms described in the tantric sex literature.
You might feel heat, or some prickling sensations in your hands, but I would say nothing worse than what you have already felt while balancing the left channel, in fact, you might feel the relief as the left channel might clear out. Don’t have expectations though – some people feel what is happening very clearly, while others – very subtly. :)
Try and see – if it does not feel right – don’t continue.
Best,
Mar’yana

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